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misunderstAnding is the word to describe all
But Jokes is the word that i can't take it now
action makes the difference
but you are not doing it
instead of keeping quiet
which make things worst

Portray my heart

I do not feel safe

When the sanity captures my dream

I can't recognize the meaNing behind

I'm scare of losing

I can't afford to lose anymore

Cause my heart had already started to be given away

Is a risk?

Is a gamble?

I did thought of that before

Cause it Once happened

BUt...

NO matter what it is

I will JUst do what my heart tells

Believing you

Have faith in you

Giving you all that I have

and perhaps one day it will be me and you eternally~

I'll wait for you I promise you...I will

In My heart is now filled with one word that i can't describe

Is this reaL?

Will it be?

I don't know....

But this word definitely mend back my heart

I want more

Can she give it to Me?

I want to trust her

I want to believe her

I want to know beyond than that

I want to know much much more

and most of all, have faith within her heart

She's real now

She is....

afraid..

scare..

worry..

will not overpower my mind

If she do it right

The "5" SOmEs in AEoN BuKiT TinGGi~

Ok..

Is another outinGzzz with my 4 gooD frienDs

WHere???

hehehe...

AeOn Bukit tiNggI of cOurse.. My klaNg Big maLL!!

FirsT part :

we reach there 11AM MORNING!!!

Go have our erm... i'm not sure is a lunch or breakfast at DraGon-i

hahaha... swt swt me ++"

we order quite alot

IN the end we didn't manage to finish our food...haiz

erm.. but anyway

Let me introduce my friends here

This oNe here drinking

is caLLed JAckiE chan

hahahhahaha XD

joking Joking

SHe don't like people call her that

is jack jiahui the planner of the daY..hahaha

so her picture must be the 1st one

This two lenG LUi here are miss chiNN YI and Miss Ai LinG
cooL pose man!!! hahaha

Both of them are good in taking picture

OK this is quite a lame picture..

IS ME anD My dearest gooD fRIeNd Miss lee CHUi YONG

she is a very funny person as well

wait till you see the picture down there then you would know why i said she is funny

hahahaXD

Haha... the sweet sweet picture of jiahui and chinyi

AWARD TO:
The BEST picture Of ALL

CHINN YI YOU are SOOOOOO pretty

AWARD TO :
The FUNNIEST picture of ALL

hahahaha XD

look at Lee CHui YOng,

she keep doing all those funny funny face

I laugh till I "beh tahan" also

SO beware to sit next to her!!!hahahaXD

hahaha...

is ME and My chuiyong

now she is normal

hahahaha XDXDXD

2nd PArt :

At LAvenDer YAm yaM cha there!!

erm, actually this should be the 3rd part cause we watch movie only then go yam cha wan

but nvm la..hahahaa

This is ailing playing with her ice- Lemon tea..hehe.. i guess is ice lemon tea

XD

CHuI yONG..hahahaha

NOw you know why i say she very funny????

XDXDXD

Fuiyo ailing what's with that pose!!!!???

Awwwww...

sweeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!!! ;)

ok.. erm...

what am i doing???

not gonna tell

blek ;p

hahahaha

the Toilet PIcture of this 5 sOmes...

everyone is looking at the right part except me

I always the cacat onE

adui.. swt me!!

3rd PArt :

tadaaaaa.....

we are at the cinema WAtching ChristmAs carOL

Quite frightening at 1st

but lateR the story line got better

ANyway..

I enjoY my day hanging out with YOu guyS

I'm sure everyOne did as weLL

and thanks to everyoNe esp JIahuI she's the planner

calling each and every one of us

ANd reached aeon i think almost half and hour earlier to buy the ticket for us

hahaha.. thank you so much jiahui

WILL always miss YOU GUys

the END

:) :) :)

tHe ShOw~~ LifE iS a mAZe aNd loV3 is A riDdLe

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
:) :) :)

LUcKy to bE in LOv3 wiTh mY beSt FriEnd

Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you.. I will.. (I love this sentence :))

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh
:) :) :)

Last MInute>>>

Last minute jiahui call And ask me out
to JUSCO Bukit tinggi tOmoRO MORNING!!!

Saying that chuiyong won't go if I don't go
what the???!!!!!!
hahahaXD

I don't feel like going actually
no mood to go
adui....
But I don't want to dissapoint her and also my friends
anyway, i comfirm going Ad

hmm...
thinking what to wear for toMoro's outinG..
swt swt ++"
haha..

HAPpY me to KNow Her!!!! :) :) :)

I got to know someone yesterDay night

she is a very funny and friendly person

I can't believe that I have a chance to talk to her on the PHONE

I'M SO HAPPY to know her!!! :) :) :)

about her :

She is a left-handed just like me.haha

She amazingly cool with her look but her personality capture the whole picture of this remakable person even better

she knows how to play guitar aNd best part is she learn it herself!! extremely cool!!XD

sheloves snooker cooking swimming and erm.. lots lots more

loves singing as well..haha

haha

WELL

WHO IS SHE?????

JAS CHIN

XD

WRiTTeN BY BEN~ You think you know what is LOVE??

Don't find love, let love find you

That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall,

you just fall

Once you accept someone for who and what they really are,

they will surprise you by being better than you ever expected

LOVE is loving OR accepting a person with all his OR her strength and weaknesses

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man

When two friends fall in love they learn they are meant for each other

When they fall out of love they realize they want to keep each other forever

Find time to realize that there is one person who mean so much to you,

for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you

Love is seeing yourself through someone's eyes and finding yourself in somebody's heart

Once you have loved, you will always love

For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever

A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end

It keeps us together like your circle of friends

But the treasure inside, for you to see,

is the treasure of friendship you've given to me

Letting go has never been easy and holding on can be as difficult

Yet strengths measured not by holding on but by letting go

True LOVE doesn't have a happy ending,

that's because true love doesn't have an ending

Men vs. women: Men would rather sacrifice love to conquer the world

Women would rather give up the world just to be with someone worth the sacrifice

Decision should not be the choice of your heart or mind but sensible balancing of both

Some thoughts are better left unsaid,

some feelings are better left kept to yourself,

but love has it's way of expressing itself despite the silence

The happier the memory, the deeper it hurts (I love this sentence)

There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed Among those

you choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for you forever

even if your glance remained elsewhere

It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else...

but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you

I love this post a lot..

thanks to ben he knows it all..

ChanGes bY nO meAns

Miserable...

Horrible...

Terrible...

I feel like changing again

CHAnge and change

izzit really work??

SHould I change my blog design again?

SHould I change my phone number?

SHould I change how I really look?

SHould I change the sonG?

I thiNk the CORE changes is myself

The one undErneath

The one that has the greatest controL of Myself

Teressa is right,

"the person who loves you, won't be hurting you till like this"

I like this sentence

I love it a lot....

ANgrY!!!!!!!!!!!!

ArgH!!!!!!

I'm real mad!!!

plus so upset

My dad really annoyed me alot alot alot

I'm so so so mad

I feel like strangling someOne nOw............

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stupid stupid stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to my uncle place TOMORROW

Don't want to see his facE.........................................................

uMmm.....

I feeL like talkinG tO someOne nOw

express how I really feeL Inside :( :( :(

hA. hA. hA

Is a New sTart

Who ever I aM?

What ever I aM?

or sOO sOO evEr I aM?

I'm So gonna chaNge

Let everytHing be New

Let everytHing start over agaiN

This means that

I'm NOt gonna look back at the old stuFF

Is gonna be A fresh fresh fresh beginning
Like freshie Juicessssss..

&

One great thiNg about todaY

I didn't think about anyonE

Cause is the other siDe i'm going too see

PerceiviNg a new feeliNg

Well in this case

I'm getting A nEw soNg of course
I'm getting A nEw colouR
A nEw TheME
A nEw Way of style
A nEw Look
A nEw ME
DO I nEEd to get A new BEst freiND

unDer cOnsideratiOn

hahahahaaXD

dreAms that Haunt

I woke up this afternoon
I don't feel nice at all
I was awake by my dream

I can't say it was a bad dream
I can't say it was a pleasant dream as well

Anyway, I dream of two person that I unconsciously misses them so much
The 1st one.... is my mum
The 2nd one.... is you

ABout my mum
my mum is acting weird again
I was angry with her at 1st but when she was with me i feel safe cause she was there for me when i needed her the most
As if... I have a mother that can help me to solve my girlish matter

sigh..i dunno how to put it in words
My heart is breaking for the way that I have treat her in my dream the same as I used to treat her in reality
I'm really a terrible daughter.. the worst one. I don't deserve your love, mum
That is why you should leave...

ABout you
YOu are being nice to me
You were sitting right next to me in a class
I'm really happy, you even accompany me to the washroom with a fren of yours(in my dream)
I can see you are getting fatter and you actually give me a warm smile
Eventhough you are acting pretty cool to me
YOu shouldn't come too, cause i feel as if you are giving me hope for another time

In the end, my dream wasn't that pleasant anymore
I was trapped in this huge washroom and it started to get dark in there
no one is in the washroom accept me and you are outside waiting for me
I tried each doorknob hopefully I might get out from this washroom
and what's frighten me the most is that I saw one of the chamber in the washroom suddenly has blood bleeding on the floor...
I'm so scare, i can feel my heart pumping real fast but fortunately i woke up from my dream...

IS this called haunted dreams??
It is so real to me.. so so real
It can really haunt me sometimes till my tears can actually be felt
It frighten me till I can feel my heart is beating so fast

Stop frightening me like that...
Stop all this....
I just want a goodnight sleep...
I don't want the dreams
good or bad, I don't want it either
JUSt leave me alone.......
PLease...... :'( :'( :'(

A NOTE FOR YOU

there is a reason why i'm doing this
there is a reason for all my action
depending whether i want to let it be known or not
But i'm sure i'm very straight forward type of person (sometimeS)

I know I started to miss you again
I know I started to have those feelings again
I'm scare
I know if I confessed it to you
YOu will definitely say something hurtful
I need you to do that
I need you to hurt me once more
so I won't dare to miss you again
so those feeling won't come back
I want to move on

To be honest from the beginning itself
I'm very sensitive by every words that you typed
each and every one of your words count and is really important to me
I can just online for nothing just to wait for your reply
one word from you can make me cry non-stop...

Then, I remembered last week I told jiahui (thru chatting msn)
"I don't want to be like you, jiahui (she is waiting for someone, holding on)
I'm not like you
I'm scare of the pain
I just want to let go
I just want to forget
I don't want to be hurt again"

And jiahui replied
"You're hurt by her words and actions
not her herself"
She is right

I just need to push myself
I need to be tough
I know exactly what I deeply feel inside
But i'm not brave enough to admit

Don't worry about anything
I feel lighter after you said you're sorry
It means alot to me
It really do....
I'm sorry for using you

Is true that i still like you
But I will do my best effort to erase this feeling

I lie to you that I love the memories
I don't love the memories! The fact is these memories can't stop lingering inside of me
I regret of having it as well..
I blame my dad why keep forcing me to go ns at the 1st place
but i never regret of knowing you
you make me realize who I love better
something about you attracts me alot
I really can't describe

BUt Please
Please Believe me
I will letgo but forgetting you is something that i can't do
I will stop loving you, though you keep saying that you only like me instead of loving me and we never started before
BUT FOR ME.. it already did..
for me is more than just a good fren r/s when i was still close with you..
I know is not for you.. but the truth is... this is how i really feel inside
After all this I can't just like you
I know is more than that
is already the 11th month
and my feeling for you is still so strong
it couldn't be just liking you

YOu said time heals
then give me some time ok?
let the time prove it all....
and I don't usually promise someone
but this time I PROMISE i will let go of you one day

ends~

Another OutinG with?????

Yes!!!

I'M out again

at subang parade with...

??????

haha

is a her.. try to guess 1st :p

Anyway,

went to eat manhattan fisH maRket with hEr

she recomended alot

and she knows all the good food

is great cause both of us can eat like anything
haha

I mean most of it lar...

we chat non-stop when we were eating

till the girl sit next to me have to switch place

I must have talked to loud

"pai seh" "pai seh"!!

hahahaXD

she is cutting it for me.. and herself too
hehe [0+0]

TA DAAAAA!!!!!!!
Is

LIM JIA HUI AGAINNNNN.... swt swt ++"

anyway I love the garlic butter sauce alot

she taught me how to eat with the rice and all

"tell you what, you are not only cool with the look but also super cool with all the good food man!!XD"

hmmm....
train delay again

memang swt la ++"""

actually today,

i came here to teman her to get her csl phone (with TV inside)

and finally she did

aiks!!!!

siapa ni??

haha

suppose to take both of our picture with her new csl phone

but end up macam ini, swt==

still dunno how to function it yet

Dui..

still fixing with the phone

she is still learning how to use it right

And this is the phone

at 1st I don't encourage her to buy

but after she bought it

quite not bad also the phone

haha

yup yup.....

at last picture taken with my phone

the best way ever

lol!!this picture is the funniest

look at her face "the constipation look"

hahahahahaXD
I ask her to post a sick look

end up

she post like tht ++

sooooo cute!!

she wants to delete the pic but i don't allow her to do so

I hope you don't mind i post this picture O.o :p

I think this picture is the best

thumbs up for both of us

chunted!!!hehe
though i look very lala

haha

love my finger nails????

I bought two different colours of nail polish today

& jiahui is the tester!! XD

I bought this clothes there too

finally,

thanks for belanja me today thanks for everything

love the meal alot

100 times better than the japanese one..haha

and sorryyy!! can't go aeon with you tomorrow

I know u have already plan everything but end up i need to put aeroplane

sorry lor..

argue with my dad just now in the car

so i plan not to go out tomorrow

but anyway

once again thank you so much for today!!! I really enjoy

hope you have a wonderful day as well

don't sad sad arr !!! smile smile ok??

How much i wish "she"(YOU) could Know this

She can't see the way your eyes
will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare
whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you
the way you want her
But you are everything to me

(chorus)
And I just want to show you,
she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you
like I want to
And you just see right through me
but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah

There's a fire inside of you
that can't help but shine through
But she's never gonna see the light,
no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just want show you,
she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

Like shadows in the faded light, oh,
we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes
and make you realize
And I just want to show you,
she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you,
let me want you
You just see right through me
but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile

Dark Rains

rain rain rain...
Please don't GO
Please don't STOP
Cause I want you to stay oN
keep the rain drops falling

I like the feeling
I like it a lot when the weather is dark
I like it better when it rains heavier
I don't know why
MAybe raining can portray better how I really feel inside

ANd when the thunder accompany the rains
It reminds me of something that
someone is afraid of you mr.Thunder
someone that are really afraid of you

"so when you come,
please don't make it so obvious"!!
You are frightening her :(

I'm not sure how this happen
But
it happens again

.........

I don't know how to describe my feelings with words
I'm scare
this falling rain describe everything
Perhaps or perhaps not~~
Dui
I'm really blogging rubbish here....

For ANother You I Wish

Everything will be okay

Everything will be fine

Everything will be alright

DOn't think so MUCH

DOn't think so FAR

U haven't know anything yet

Is just an assumption

Is not COMFIRM either!!!

It doesn't prove anything at all

In everyone's life there is obstacles

is just a part of all humans life

Look at me!! and YOu know how much i have been through

And I'm sure these obtacles will soon go away

YOU go through a lot too

In the end

everything will turn out to be okay

Pray tonight

blog your feeling

Keep your head up and look at the bright side

Think of her and place it in your heart like you always do

and will always be

even though she is not here with you but in your heart she will forever be :)

I wish everything will be alright

and most of all

I will always be here for you too

LOts of hug and do take care my dear friend

someone send it to me..

People come into your life for

a reason, a season or a lifetime

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are

They are there for the reason you need them to be

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end Sometimes they die

Sometimes they walk away

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand

What we must realize is that our need has been met,

our desire fulfilled, their work is done

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share,

grow or learn

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh

They may teach you something you have never done

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy

Believe it, it is real

But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person

put what you have learned to use in all other relationships

and areas of your life

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime