OptimisTic

wheN i try To be optimistiC

pretend to be myself in the way that I used to be

And I distracT myself from all the memories

maYbe i wiLL bUry aLL the Pain awaY

SOmetiMEs DruGS Are nOt the maiN KEy of aLL these miserY

Perhaps tHis is whaT i thiNk now

Might wILL not know what i caN thiNk off for the next Minutes

HoweVer foR Now, I juSt want to staY awaY from aLL the Memories

I need to recOver

I will make myself as bUsy as I couLd

Is painfuL though......

But if I don't do it

I'm killing mYself insidE so miserably

caUSe deeP Inside I'm stiLL holdinG on

But nOW my heart is telliNg me to Give Up

I beLIeve that

"giviNG uP doesn't meaN you're weaK,

sometimes it means that YOu are strong enough to Let go"