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misunderstAnding is the word to describe all
But Jokes is the word that i can't take it now
action makes the difference
but you are not doing it
instead of keeping quiet
which make things worst

dreAms that Haunt

I woke up this afternoon
I don't feel nice at all
I was awake by my dream

I can't say it was a bad dream
I can't say it was a pleasant dream as well

Anyway, I dream of two person that I unconsciously misses them so much
The 1st one.... is my mum
The 2nd one.... is you

ABout my mum
my mum is acting weird again
I was angry with her at 1st but when she was with me i feel safe cause she was there for me when i needed her the most
As if... I have a mother that can help me to solve my girlish matter

sigh..i dunno how to put it in words
My heart is breaking for the way that I have treat her in my dream the same as I used to treat her in reality
I'm really a terrible daughter.. the worst one. I don't deserve your love, mum
That is why you should leave...

ABout you
YOu are being nice to me
You were sitting right next to me in a class
I'm really happy, you even accompany me to the washroom with a fren of yours(in my dream)
I can see you are getting fatter and you actually give me a warm smile
Eventhough you are acting pretty cool to me
YOu shouldn't come too, cause i feel as if you are giving me hope for another time

In the end, my dream wasn't that pleasant anymore
I was trapped in this huge washroom and it started to get dark in there
no one is in the washroom accept me and you are outside waiting for me
I tried each doorknob hopefully I might get out from this washroom
and what's frighten me the most is that I saw one of the chamber in the washroom suddenly has blood bleeding on the floor...
I'm so scare, i can feel my heart pumping real fast but fortunately i woke up from my dream...

IS this called haunted dreams??
It is so real to me.. so so real
It can really haunt me sometimes till my tears can actually be felt
It frighten me till I can feel my heart is beating so fast

Stop frightening me like that...
Stop all this....
I just want a goodnight sleep...
I don't want the dreams
good or bad, I don't want it either
JUSt leave me alone.......
PLease...... :'( :'( :'(

describe LOVE???

What was it like when a person hurt too much
he or she got so afraid to be hurt again?
Is a fear that u cannot see but is strong enough to held you back to the world of misery....

Does HOLDING ON make someone stronger or LETTING GO?

You fell many times
yet you just can't get enough

What is love?
Why it can make someone so blind to see?
Love is not stupid...
but I remember once I did called someone stupid because of love
doing something which is unacceptable....
but when this happens to me
I finally understand

Yes...
is broken into pieces when u knew the things u ever wanted
could never be fulfil
yet we'll still continue holding it on close to your heart
and thats the path that we'll be walking through
Is that called LOVE ?

I am afraid to walk this path
But
sometimes
is extremely hard to control this feeling
i try to hide
but how??
when this feeling is pulling me back

Time?

Time never heals
time never cure
not for me
time is just a reason for me to live on with the pain i held on to
is just an excuse for people to say it is a healer

WORDS sometimes can't describe how people feel
Not even your TEARS can make people understand how you deeply feel inside
not till you experience it yourself.................................

WaiTinG fOr thE rEply

I wait

and wait

and wait

When r u going to reply me?

My Patient can't take control anymoRe

Don't message me if u don't think u gonna reply mE please

Do u thiNK thIS is A gaME??

Don't PlaY arounD with all this pLease

I'm not like the Other GirLs that U r flirtinG wiTh

AnD..

I dream of u when i was taking a nap just now

i Saw your reply asking me what time i will be free this weekend

but too bad it was just a dream...

the fact is...

u didn't reply me at all


I check my phone every minute


What a great dissapointment anD yet there is still no message from YOU


PLease don't message me if u don't want to reply me!

EveRytHiNg hAPPens For a rEason```

I'm already very depressed this few days...

NOw

I felt worst thAn before...

MY FAVOURITE PSYCHOLOGY TEACHER IS LEAVING IN TWO WEEKS TIMES

she is going to SEGI

DAMMNNNNN!!!!

WHY WHY WHY?????? I ask her this just now in her office..

she smile and replied "I got a better offered there but u wil be fine, u will get a different lecturer to teach from HUC" Don't worry Precillia u will do fine here. I know u can"..

haizzzzzzzzz.............

actually I feel like telling her

"U never no how sad i am when u said that and I know I'm not fine at all"

However, I REspect your decision

And I shall Like to dedicate tHis

MEssaGE SpEciallY fOr Miss SHoba:

I start loving psychology because the way u taught us

I feel good with you because

your teaching makes me see

the whole perspective better

and I enjoyed very much for each lesson u teach

the way u convey the meaning with a clear explainations

the way u apply the terms to our everyday life and make it so interesting that you caught my attention for continuous loving this subject

AS a role model, u inspire me

u sparked the creativity of psychology in my life

tO dream and to woRk and to Reach

u are incredibly nice caring teacher

NO word so can truly tell how great you are

But as a teacher, you are numbEr ONE!! :)~~~~

SomeHow,

I still feel really upsad

I don't know what else to say to make myself feel any better..

I started to see things in the other way round now..

maybe the pain in my heart is just too real..

and is too much that time cannot erase :(

I dOn't beLieve YoU-- ---PinK

i LOVE thIS sonG alot

which is Now playing in my "mixpod"

The Music is wOnderfuL

The lyricS AttracTeD Me~~

SomeHow i feeL saD wheN i liSteN to this song as i go thru the lyrics

so sad :(

``BuT whY itZit So?``

I been hearIng it for many timEs till I actually sinG it alonG

and nevEr get boREd

PaiNNN>>>>>

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........
Is so pain!!!
very very pain..
maybe 1 pill is not enough i need another one..
omg...
i need help...
please stop the pain..
i feel like dying now......
oh..
i forgot to mention
is period pain actually~