banana

today i try to sign in this blog~ cool i still remember ur password...
and veiwing back before your written...
memory sick~

ya...i too miss you
i cant hide my feeling to you~

dont worry... you will never lost me..
im still here for you
when you needed me and i will be there for you~
coz love you let me dont no what happens going on..

tomorrow is our day ~ 11.23
are you still remember??
1st time we meet
1st time i saw u till i forgot how to breath
and smile until i don know how to close my mouth~
i miss this all...

i felt lucky
coz you still care of me.
thanks , nyu

he's smart , ofcoz he wont tell you
im smart too, so ofcoz i would like to let you know anything..

we all are selfish... it's because of love.
anywhere , i say is ture~
just want you to know, yesterday night i drunk~
so i bu xiao xin told you...
not mean like i want to hurt you..sorry
and i not means like want you to break up with him~
hope you will remember~

everything are changed.
so no need to explain too much~

I love you more than anything.

i will control myself to not bother you anymore~
take care.. bibi

Jas

SoRRy.....
I Can't say anything.....
Hope you can remember....
miss u too much~

I love u more than anything

Missing u like crazy

After so long I didn't post anything

finally today I can't help myself

but to talk about you

I miss you damn much

SO SO SO much

I dream and think of you every single day

I dreamt that we went 1 utama..haha

and want to buy cupcakes!

really hope that you will be by my side

SOrry I didn't keep my promise

But in my heart i still love you and miss you

our memory keeps lingering in my mind

I can't wait for you to come back

Love you like I always do

"BIBI
I'm very sorry
I miss you very much
I Love you more than anything
I really want to come to your house

Please forvige me BIBI

WO VERY XIANG NI ar!!! :'( :'("
p/s: I didn't delete my blog, i private it

sad sad sad day

It suppose that I can go to bibi house this evening
But......................
:(
I just don't know how to explain
I'm deeply deeply depresed now
how much I wish to see my bibi
I miss bibi so so muchie :( :( :(

I feel like crying out now
and I'm so damn tired
HAIYO
I"M GOING TO COME MY UNCLE PLACE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALOT of BAd News I got from HIM!!
HE CAN't even HELp but expect to know so much
DAMN IT!

HAng Out One Utama

Oh gOODness

Is

BBQ PLAZA AGAINNN!!!

This time

I'm eating with??????

SOOK ANN ANN

Haha.. lOok at her..

Love her outfit today, very trendy!!hehe

But, I have no idea why she said very "lala" wor??

We didn't order much today

and was me who decide to eat at BBQ Plaza again

I'm too addicted already++

Next,

We went "Yam Cha" at "LAVA"

\This is my CUCUMBER drink, transparent some more

Got abit of cucumber taste, gassy gassy and very sweet ~~hehe

Love it :) was recomended by the owner of the shop ^.^

Then we have the cinamon of... erm... erm..

Couldn't remember the name==

haha..

Not bad as well

Sook ann said is "cha kue" O.o?

Ta.Da!!

As for this

the funnel cake!!

It looks very delicious but

NOT as good as what we expected

The chocolate bitter bitter one..

no good no good~~

ANd is recomended by sook ann ann some more..

hahahahaha!!!!

But ice-cream very good very good :)

And of course..

We have

MISS LAI JO YEN here!!

I love her new look :D

Later oN,

We have

MISS WEI JING!!!!

SHe very leng lui want ar...

This HUGE CAT

was taken at new wing 1utama

This was given BY SOOK ANN ANN

Very sweet of of her : )

SHe gave me during lunch at BBQ plaza

Was really touched when I read this

I am blessed to have a GOOD FRIEND like you

Especially in Sri Aman

I thought i will never find a true friend there

But once you came...

Everything change :)

"YOu"

Shared Helped Listened Understand like no other true friend

Forever You Are

My BESTEST FRIEND!!

LAstly,

Got this candy for my darling, is kiwi flavour~~
hehe!!:)

The way It is..

Was cooked by winnie teh and Lee chui YoNg

At

"BBQ PLaza"

hahaha
Actually big portion was cooked by me..

But is eaten BY NYu PrecilliA
Alone

We do ate a Lot..

ZoominG...

"this is what happens when you eat very long"

Kelian...
Left only the vege

All of us are too hungry..

After that...
Is dessert time..

hehe

Lycee and chocolate cheese

It looks good
But
It taste even Better ^.^

HAng out with winnie teh and lee chui yong yesterday
We spend real good time together
HAving out lunch at bbq plaza..
& love the sauce alot

After so long we didn't meet
and finally yesterday is the perfect day

Chuiyong when home earlier cause she's having her family gathering in the evening

Well,
which remains me and winnie shops around
we got some sandals at "STEP"
and had our ice snow later while chit chatting as well..

Anyway is great having them out
hope we could do this more..

The only One I'm thinking Is YOu

"I really miss you so much now...
No call No message

You must be very mad

Words can't describe

How much I love you

But I really do..."

"An Quan Gan"

Is every chinese people favourite's day
or
maybe we can say happy day?

But for me
Is just any ordinary day that i got extra holidays...
Cool??
I guess...
Lately,

I really don't feel like blogging

the mood is just not there...

However today,

my mood change..

Real bored now
And I miss someone real much:(
Feeling a bit sad
cause i think alot again

At times,
Is real difficult to express what I'm really feeling inside
I don't even have the guts to tell anyone else, not even her(jh)
Sometimes, i just want to be left alone, being single
but sometimes i wish being with someone...

Is so complicated...
I turn out to be more and more unreasonable (pa tau)
I don't know what's the exact thing i want from her
dong bu dong jiu angry till she is so afraid...
I feel very bad for her
that is why sometimes I just want to give up...

afraid of losing..
afraid she'll be taken...
afraid she'll not love me anymore..
I'm controlling, I know I am
she dislike the way I'm acting..

Problems and problems overlapping
I'm tired
I cried...

I know i'm gonna lose you one day cause the way i treat you
this is why i'm giving up more easily now
then regret..
I predicted the ending
for what we are feeling now when we are together
i fall faster and unable to grab tightly
cause i'm scare to be hurt.....................
that is why i told you
I don't have an quan gan when i'm with you

Back to the originaL

Each time I leave,

I couldn't stop myself from turning back,

to have myself to give the last look on you,

P/s: sorry for pushing you awaY, I don't mean to..
it breaks me when i did...

To Someone Who Owns My Best Pal's Heart !

I'm telling u this is for your own good. I never meant to scold u or to give u another pressure.
I'm here again is to help u. To be your friend !
I once told u this and i'm going to tell u again,

"If u dont change,u will lose her ! "

Is that what u really want from her?
To leave u and not to love u anymore?
If u dont change,u will not lose only her but also everyone around u ..

Why cant u realised how much that she had done for u?
Why cant u see that everything she's doing is just for u but no one else?
Why cant u realised she is the One that is helping u out?
Why cant u see that u're the only One she loves not ******* ?

She wants u to change is not for her but for the best of U !!

U remember the promises u made to her?
U remember all the things u said and swore to do it?
What happened to all that now?
Why stopped now? Why disappoint her now?

Why cant u just appreciate her and love her like she do to u?

When its too late,u cant never turn back time anymore !!
Please dont be like me ..
I wish to hold her back in my arms but i will never have the chance again ..
Do u know how painful it is to lose someone u really love?
U will never know until u lost her.
Its just too late to say "I'm sorry .." anymore ..

U still has a chance,a chance to turn everything back. A chance to mend things back to where it was from the start. Why wish to ruin it and not appreciate all u had?

All the tears she shed for u,all the love she shared with u. And all the things she done for u is all because she loves u. No one else ! Damn it !

Where are u? The first impression u gave me when i first knew u. The feelings and thoughts that i knew my best friend will be secure and safe in your hands.
Where is the one i knew will stood up and defend for my best friend whenever she has problem ?
Where is the one i knew that swore to protect her and told me she is your only one u will love and care always ?
Where is the one i knew that used to bring smile to her ?
Where the hell are u ?!

Is this how u're treating my best pal now ?

I knew that u will hurt her so in this way,i wouldnt had let her to be with u from the first place !

Wake up !

U both still loves each other !

Dont lose each other for a silly mistake that can be change.

U're not useless at all ! U just gotta stand up to give the best of yourself !

Please dont disappoint me ..

Ending of all

Is part of learning

I did my best to appreciate everything

But all I have is a piece of nothing

Disappointment and disappointment keep coming in

It never stops lingering in my life

I'm tired

I never knew it would be this fast but it did

For now, i just want to concentrate in my studies

that's all

hope and despair~~

You mean so much to me

I tried my best effort to make you change

No matter how mad I am to you

My feeling for you will never change

Never!

......

I'm guilty heartbreaking after each time I treat you this way

what's more?

my heart is really tearing to see you like that

That is why,

I held you back and can't let go each time too

is because my feeling for you is still so strong

&

never a moment it is taken away from me

......

Stand up and tell me that you can do it instead of just trying

Believe in yourself

I am here for you now

I'm supporting you

....

But I can't never succeed by doing it alone if you don't corporate

It takes two hands to clap

Mine is ready

but where is yours?

......

I'm getting tired here

Maybe I just don't feel safe sometimes

Maybe I put such high hope on you

But you are just letting me down

......

You are not useless!!!!

You are just keep thinking that you ARE

You are easily manipulate from the one you love the most

......

Please....

Please stand up for yourself for your family and for me..

I will be here for you

You have to change!!

Or else I'm very very sure one day you will definitely lose it all

......

Lastly..

I just want you to know

that my feeling for you will never change

it is always here

......

But if you never ever appreciate and continue being like that

This feeling,

I promise it will eventually fade one day

......... ends...........

Sleepless night

I'm real tired yesterday

real tired actually

still I can't fall asleep.........

A lot of things are going around my mind

The feeling came by when I couldn't sleep yesterday night

for the whole night actually...

This feeling was like how I used to get hurt before and trying hard to let go

I'm scare this feeling will come back and hunt me again

I don't want to loss you too

I really don't want

BUT after you told me last night

That your sis never wanted you to see me again

and also the taiwan things................................................

Is possible we won't be together

though I cried for wishing not to but can anyone hear me?

I felt bad for what i have told you yesterday night as well

I shouldn't have said to you like that

Finally,

I have no idea why u kept mentioning about your 2nd ex-gf

I wonder if you are on the phone with her yesterday night

something that you can't tell me

something that you are hiding from me

I'm tired of guessing

I will wait you for telling me yourself......

Gratitude to YOU

Is amazing to have YOU as good my friend

Whatever life throws our way, we can remember that we have each other


Remember this whenever you are low i'm here for you
to be your listener :)


And
I'm thankful too...
to have you as my best friend
thank you for everything
LOve and hugs :)

ll Thanks to a lovely Dear =) ll

To a wonderful pal of mine,Precillia .. =)

" Without u,it is impossible i could stay this strong till today. Without u,i wont be here today. Without u,i wont get to see the world in a better way. Without u,my life aint a complete one. From the first day u stepped into my world,i never regret having u as a great friend of mine. Sorry to say this but i'm aint letting u go no matter what comes in my life. Will always hold u close to me and never will i let go =) Thanks for always being by my side,your presence in my life makes my life a whole new world to be live in. Thanks for all your care and love to me. Hugs dear dear ! "

My wish for you,

I wish

YOu will be alright, he'll be alright, your whole family will be alright

I wish

YOu can stay strong, he'll stay strong, your whole family will stay strong together

I wish

YOu will not think too much but to hold on, your whole family too

The only thing is

support him

be there for him

pray for him

to my dearest bestfriend and family

gloomy~

I feel real bad today

MY dear best friend is having problem

and I can't even help

I don't know what to reply her

I don't know what to say

AND

I'm having bad dreams during my nap time

I dreamt of my mum again

which makes me feel worst
cause...................

haiz

I'm going out tonight

guess who?

Ying Chiet..

I'm going to find out what is worng with her..

AND solve the problem as soon as possible

Missing you so much.....

I miss you so so so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Feeling weird when i don't get to hear your voice for some time...

Hmm...

Do you miss me as well? :(

HAhaha...

Just when i write this

i get your phone call,

telling me you'll be coming tomorrow :) :) :)

ChocolaTeSS Love

StoRy :

I remember u came to my house feeling sad looking at me like that on the bed...

Telling me how worried you are

YOu are unsure whether i'm angry or in pain

I didn't say a thinG

aFter i realise for what you have done

I'm reaLLy touched(gan dong)

I never thought u could just leave your job and came to see me

I was shocked but I really want you to be close to me

I'm sorry for acting childish and unreasonable

I'm sorry for all my jealousy and selfishness

I'm sorry for thinking too much

I'm sorry when I compare you and "her"

U mean too much to me too

I'm scare of losing you......

Give me some time to have the faith in You

I need you to PROVE to me as well

But.....

I will try not to repeat my mistake

I will always treasure for all that you have done:) :) :)

haha, anyway

I finish all the chocolates alreaDy``hehe

I love you my darling~~~